(God’s Short Story by Timothy J. Verret)
“I wonder what’s wrong with him?”
“Timothy J. Verret?”
Yeah, they always say that: “I wonder what’s wrong with him? Timothy J. Verret?” I wonder if they ask themselves the same question?
What IS wrong with Timothy J. Verret? Well, for starters, he’s hoping you read this and can help him figure out what IS wrong with Timothy J. Verret. That you might be able to pinpoint where he went wrong, how he went wrong, why he went wrong, who he went wrong, and what he went wrong. Timothy J. Verret can’t imagine how the reader could figure all that out.
But there is some hope here, because where, how, why, who, what went wrong with Timothy J. Verret is probably the very same things you went wrong, too. What do you think?
Timothy J. Verret suffers from a condition many suffer from and struggle with: He is an egomaniac with an inferiority complex. He’s not much but he’s all he thinks about. Sound familiar? Maybe it doesn’t. Maybe you are NOT an egomaniac and you got no inferiority complex whatsoever? Maybe you ARE much but you DON’T think about you that much? It’s actually quite acceptable for the reader to pause right now and consider, reflect, maybe even rejoice?
(PAUSE or SELAH, whichever you prefer….)
Timothy J. Verret is glad you’ve come back, assuming you did. What did you find out? Was there some kind of revelation that took place that was a long time coming? Did you say, “Screw this Timothy J. Verret! Who the hell does he think he is to be asking me to consider, reflect, maybe even rejoice? He’s NOT the boss of me. I’m my OWN boss!” Did you say that….or maybe just thought it?
Timothy J. Verret is a writer, which means his occupation is to educate, entertain, enlighten, “egg you on,” ANYTHING but bore you! Timothy J. Verret would NEVER want to bore you with what he writes. That said, as a writer, Timothy J. Verret needs to think about his reader first and himself last. “The last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.” – Matthew 20:16. Matthew said that, NOT Timothy.
Timothy J. Verret is lonely. He is funny. He is uncertain. He is playful. He is weak. He is strong. He is ALWAYS BOTH! Timothy J. Verret holds the BOTH of EVERYTHING! The serenity AND the struggle. The hope AND the pain. The joy AND the devastation. The laughter AND the tears. Timothy J. Verret doesn’t think he could survive if he did not HOLD BOTH. What about you? Do you HOLD BOTH? Or just ONE? Timothy wants you to look at your hands right now to realize you have TWO hands, NOT one. There’s a reason you have TWO, right? So you can HOLD BOTH!
“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” – 1 Corinthians 13:11. It’s no mystery that Timothy J. Verret was born on 11/13/16 (would have been cool if he had been born on 13/11 in application of this verse, right?). But the point is: Timothy J. Verret is still a child, though he is old. Well, older. Timothy still “spakes” as a child, understands as a child, thinks as a child, has not become a man (nor, does he desire to), and has NOT put away childish things. Timothy J. Verret still sleeps with a Snoopy stuffed animal and lies down with a Snoopy weighted blanket to cover him. He still draws and colors as a child. When Timothy J. Verret “spakes,” he says things like, “Just ‘cause.” As the line in THE PRINCE OF TIDES (Barbra Streisand is a big favorite of Timothy J. Verret), when Tom is asked a probing question from Dr. Lowenstein, he replies, “just ‘cause.” She replies, “that’s a child’s answer, Tom.” Yes, it is, and that is typical of Timothy J. Verret. When Timothy J. Verret understands, he understands so little like a little child…”Jesus said, ‘let the little children like Timothy J. Verret come to me, and do not hinder him, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as Timothy J. Verret’” – Matthew 19:14. When Timothy J. Verret thinks, he thinks, “What will THEY think of me?” Yes, a people pleaser is Timothy J. Verret. “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” – Galatians 1:10. I don’t think Timothy J. Verret chose to be a man at all! I think he did not ever, never, want to put away childish things, because he never, ever, really had a childhood at all to speak of! Timothy J. Verret didn’t get to grow up right, so he has to start from scratch….as “little children.”
If you ever run into or meet Timothy J. Verret, please talk to him, share with him BOTH, find him in those encounters where generosity and gentility (BOTH) meet together as TWO. If you will join your TWO hands with Timothy J. Verret’s TWO hands, there will be 4 (that number is Timothy J. Verret’s spiritual number; he’s an Enneagram 4!)
Timothy will be waiting patiently, albeit longsuffering, for you….
PS: Timothy J. Verret “borrowed” the first two lines of this story from Ingmar Bergman’s film, PERSONA, when the nurse assigned to care for the actress said about her patient, “I wonder what’s wrong with her? Elisabet Vogler?” When I allow Timothy to create, he “borrows” BIGTIME from Bergman.